I can’t tell you how many times I have logged into my WordPress account in hopes to be able to write something that I feel would bring enough value to my readers to post.
The last several months have been … interesting.
I am sure a lot of you are wondering… where the fuck am I? Did I fall off the face of the earth? Give up on my blog?
Honestly, I have tried to write but just cannot. The words were not able to flow like they were before…
But right now- I can write.
So I will.
Personally, there have been changes- such as a new (&beautiful) relationship, to start things off. BIG DEAL.
Professionally, I won’t bore you with the details of my real estate career- it is what it is. I am wanting to shift away from the sales side and work on other facets of the industry such as development, building, design & architecture. And then, of course, continue my passion-based business which is showcased here online. I obviously have not been doing much in this department. I have completely fallen off the Instagram train.
I have been continuing to work steadily on my recovery journey with the Eating Disorder- and I am happy that I was able to have, for the most part, a very healthy Thanksgiving where I could come out enjoying a meal and eating whatever I want without any guilt. I can really see how I have grown and shifted from where I used to be, and where I am now.
But of course, as I constantly strive to improve and fine-tune, the newest “situation” came up today for me.
Working On Me:
I am so grateful to be in the relationship I am now. I am probably the happiest I have been in a relationship EVER- but there is no rest for the wicked is there?
Being in this new relationship has encouraged me to expand and work on areas of self that I am so grateful for. It has highlighted and reflected to me the areas in which I really am still struggling- and this is something I am sure MANY of you are also struggling with too.
Learning to Fill My Own Cup First
“Unless You Are In Your Joy, You Have Nothing to Give Anyways”.
I remember pulling that spirit card years ago… it has continued to resonate with me after several years. As simple as this card is, this has been a consistent learning lesson for me to work on diligently.
I am still working on not feeling guilty about having my own needs met instead of putting them on the back burner and making sure everyone else is okay first.
We have been taught that selfish is a dirty word.
This being said, I have realized that there is nothing wrong with being (reasonably) selfish.
At the expense of my own sanity and health, it is important that I speak openly about what I want and expect. What is working for me and what isn’t- it is okay for me to voice my needs in a way that is not attacking anyone but rather honouring what I want and feel.
I am appreciative of today- the fact that I have a boyfriend who is truly amazing and whom I can communicate (for what is probably the first time ever) how I am really feeling and what I really want.
I will continue to heal, grow, live, learn…
I feel like I have lost a part of myself …just a bit… not being able to write for awhile.
It feels nice to get back on here… hopefully this will be the start of a writing cycle again. I pride myself on my ability to showcase authenticity- and having it translate clearly through my writing.
Drop me a note… I’d love to know who still reads these posts and what you think about my “come back post”.
Does any of this resonate with you?