I’ve had a busy year.
This week is absolutely no exception with a sharp curveball that got thrown into the mix unexpectedly.
And such is life.
I think that it is important to address not only all the joys and wonderful things in my life- (as there are so many!) but also be authentic and real with you about all the ups and downs that I still face.
That being said, this is still a somewhat ambiguous post- which is funny because I am usually apparent with my writing but well, hey- guess you should subscribe to my private posts then (juicier stuff will be in there, just enter your email in the subscribe box on the right-hand side when you scroll down).
What came up for me from this “abrupt interruption” is the importance of something that I can take to share with you- and it is the importance of really feeling your feelings when things come up.
It is fair to say that in life, things will come up for all of us that will provoke certain “unpleasantries” aka feelings that are uncomfortable, and that may even break or hurt your heart.
In the past, I did not deal with these feelings properly- I would push them aside, or use a variety of avoidance techniques that I used to cope with what I felt I could not deal with, want to face or understand.
After doing consistent and focused self-work that the past few years, the growth that I have experienced show up in moments like these. As an observer, I am now able to understand and see how I would have reacted/acted differently in the past than how I do now.
And you know what I have realized?
Feelings, “good” or “bad” are apart of life- and they must be properly felt.
To truly feel enriched I must be able to accept and experience all facets of emotions- from grief and sadness to joy.
And as wonderful and “easy” it is to experience joy,
alternatively, I must face the reality that I may experience other feelings too.
Getting comfortable with the uncomfortable
Last night I really sank into my feelings- feelings of sadness, grief, and loss.
This time, I was able to go down a different path- a path much different than I have gone down before.
I did not hide from it.
I chose to not distract myself from it.
Nor did I sweep it underneath the rug and pretend everything was okay.
In fact, I cried and cried …
I sunk into it.
I got really comfortable with it.
It seemed that there was a point when my very own pain embraced me with a hug…
kinda crazy right?
But that’s just it- it was almost like a shiatsu massage- the pain was deep and real but… it kinda felt good.
Because I knew that by experiencing that pain in the moment I would feel much better later.
And it is so true.
I woke up with puffy swollen eyes.
But I felt better.
After releasing the pain the healing can now begin….
And so it does…..
I’d love to hear any comments or what this brought up for you! Please share your insights below 🙂
Love & Light xo